So this week I have learned a lot. I have learned that I can change my frame of mind and completely tune everything out even though my heart is racing and my body is screaming STOP! I have learned that the my frame of mind has been my problem for a very long time. This week has been a challenge in so many different ways. First off I figured I can work out all day long but if I don’t get a handle on this eating thing I’m as good as last place. And for me that just isn’t good enough. So I started journaling it all. From exercising to eating to the activities I’m doing. My eating habits are changing and I’m figuring out how I can have my cake and eat it too…. Literally! For the most part the change has been very good. I don’t have that ran down feeling as much and I have had A LOT more energy. Which really came as a surprise since for so long I have ran on over 2000 to 2500 calories a day. But not anymore! Last Friday I finally got to start on some weights. And for the most part Dave was right, I wasn’t really sore. No I didn’t say it didn’t hurt and that he didn’t push me because he did and it did. He has just told me there is no reason to be sore and fatigued all the time . That this is suppose to help me not feel that way so it shouldn’t feel that way. My cardio seems to be right on track but I just hope it’s working. Sometimes it’s all I can do to make myself do it but the more I do it the easier it gets and I guess that’s what keeps me going for now. I really have been trying hard to make this change I am making stick. I mean after all what’s the point if after this competition I gain it all back and there is no change, So many time in the past I just quit trying because I either knew I wasn’t going to win or whatever changes I was making probably were not going to stick. So this time I vow it will be different and I can’t wait to see the change. The anticipation is killing me for our February weigh-in. I honestly hope everyone is doing well. I can say for a fact that with out 2 other contestants cheering me on I don’t know that I would not have gotten as far as I have. I think it is important to find that support in others especially when they are going through the same thing. And as much as I want to win if all I get is these 2 great people as friends out of this that far surpasses anything I could ever have asked for. My trainer is teaching me how to loose this weight and change my life but they are teaching me that I can do it. This past week I really pushed myself a little harder thanks to these friends. And today I learned that I truly can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13)
Valerie Pasternak ~Life isn’t about finding yourself but CREATING yourself!~
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